I wish i knew what is exacly the cause of my frustration and negative thoughts..As you probably remember from other posts i have this problem for 5 years since i was 14..
I just can not move on with my life...i can not get past this negative thoughts,feeling guilty,thinking i won't be able to concentrateIf. If i try to enjoy life...for example i say let's go and play football..but i still feel stressed about something when i play football,i still feel something preventing me from relaxing ..and i don't know what it is..so i can not go on with my life because when i try to relax and enjoy myself i feel something it's holding me
backBack pain - low
Back strain treatment,something boddering me,stresses me.
I would like to know what is this thing,thought..wich doesn't give me peace..but i can not find it..I often think of my past actions and try to realise why i have become so negative,stressed and unable to enjoy anything.
I want to enjoy things but i feel i can not..soemthing doesn't let me feel free .
I am very afraid that it has to do with my father..that i might feel like this becasue i dissapointed him and don't have the courage to repair my mistake..i am not sure of this,i am not sure at all.and this is very stressful to not be sure.
I have big incertities..I still feel bad and insecure about masturbating,or when someone beggs money in the trainstation and i don;t give it i feel bad..but also inceratin ..i am not sure if should give him or if i shouldn't and i then feel guilty.
Do you think i should search the cause of this,and how to find it? will i find it?i am always uncertain about what to do and about my feelings.
It is probably very deep inside me...